twenty one years.
"the truth; without holding back"

15th August 2014


lol cool, thx for hiring a model who’s studying library science and will prob work mostly down in the youth dept. way to boost my insecurity.

Tagged: workughwhati hope dearly she has a bf/gf/so

14th July 2014


PSA to all workers, everywhere

Please don’t decide to NOT SHOW UP WHEN YOU’RE SCHEDULED TO AND QUIT THE JOB AND NOT TELL YOUR BOSS all in the same fucking day.
Sorry, but I thought I was working with mature adults here. Guess I was wrong about that.

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Tagged: workstressbullshit situations

27th March 2013


when at work you and your bf are talking about taking showers later on and a patron walks up to the desk.

Tagged: workdating lifeawkward...

2nd May 2012


Since when do we have chocolate to make chocolate covered strawberries?

Since when do we have chocolate to make chocolate covered strawberries?

Tagged: libraryworkdelicious food

18th April 2012


Me and a buddy at work. What an exciting life I live.

Me and a buddy at work. What an exciting life I live.

Tagged: librarypolar bearwork

8th January 2012


'does anyone know what two-faced means?'

Asks my co-librarian to the third grade class we have visiting. Gestures to me and says,
‘I’m sure Paige knows what it means…could you explain it to them?’

…um wat

Tagged: what has johanna been saying to you?!im really not a terrible

2nd December 2011


When you realize two coworkers were just talking about you

and it probably wasn’t good.


Tagged: personalworkpeople

30th August 2011


Hey, nice one there big guy;

the men’s bathroom smells like pot. Thanks.

…just realized the last people in the men’s bathroom were middle schoolers.
what the hell dood.

Tagged: worklibrary

22nd August 2011


Day Two/2. How you have changed in the past 2 years

Thinking back two years ago - the summer before junior year - is hazy and seems miles away from now; I feel as though the person I was then is not at all the person I am now. I’ve changed a lot, but mostly I guess I’ve remained the same. Realizations were made that I didn’t even begin to step on then.

For one, I was in a relationship at that point, and had been for four months (this time in August). I was in puppy love, hopeful and optimistic and giddy. My world slowly was boiling down to that person, and after some time I realize now I hadn’t been completely honest with myself. I became bored eventually and blamed myself for it, only to center myself more around him to compensate. During the rest of that year, I became more clingy and dependent and although it was nice, easier to do that than face the truth, I realize now it did, of course, bring me down. 

As the year went on, I still wasn’t very content. I felt stilted and trapped and run down in the same routine - my senior year left me wanting nothing else but to leave. By the end, I know I didn’t embrace it - mainly, I was adversed to getting close to others and being judged. I wanted nothing to do with people. 

These past few months I feel I’ve really pushed my limits and in doing so have realized more than I have throughout the past two years, maybe. Once I was out of school, I had nothing but work and a few close friends that became my focus. Before I knew it, I was wholeheartedly involved in my job which really, has not happened with anything like that before. I ran two events, one geared towards kids, the other adults. I took photographs of the events, managed the website, took risks (made mistakes) and learned more than I have in any summer. Because of this, it was one of the best. I hung out with my friends more - usually I hermit it up during the summer, keep to myself and catch up on things I want to - and bridged up some sort of friendships with people I hadn’t really talked to before, and even caught up with an old friend (ish, accidentally). More often than not, I was have a great time, just living and laughing it up - I realized I hadn’t really been laughing enough, or much for that matter, before. 

"I’m sick of all the insincere/so I’m gonna give all my secrets away" and "This has just gotta be a good life" have been my mindsets this summer. Being open and honest and full of good humor - lord knows the world needs more of it.
Also: action means a hell of a lot more than words.
And accepting more people for who they are rather than what I’d like them to be - and allowing them to fill your life with whatever. Who cares if we all come from different backgrounds, we’re in the same place and that’s all the comfort we need.

Hopefully starting school won’t backtrack me again, and maybe in two years (when I graduate and am on my way to a four year college) I can honestly say, I’ve changed little. 

Tagged: challengeday twopersonalrelationshipshigh schoollibraryworkonerepubliccollege

22nd August 2011

Video with 2 notes

the next few days of that week.

Tagged: personalvlograngeleymainewritinglibraryworkpoetry cafe